My body feels like it’s straddling a fence. On one side there is diet culture. On the other… something unknown — an amorphous, imprecise ‘better way’. It terrifies me. It terrifies me because it’s a land of acceptance and a burial ground for control.
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Trigger warning: This post discusses eating disorders, body image and weight gain in a relationship. ‘Does my body look bigger to you?’ It was a question I already knew the answer to. I wondered silently whether he had noticed my body change gradually over the years or if it had snuck up on him as…
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I take frantic notes after every therapy session with the aim of remembering all of the revelations I came to in that 50 minute period. Most of the notes I take are disjointed blurbs that, when read together, illuminate some kind of unifying message or wider theme. Sometimes I have to think about how to…
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