Finding Self-Compassion During Coronavirus

Hi. It feels like it has been a long time since I was last here. Thinking. Writing. Deleting and re-writing. The last thing I shared was a Beauty Pie review, which makes me smile a little because makeup and skincare feel so ridiculously trivial at this moment and yet, they’re one of the few things…

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Reflecting on 2019

Is it just me or was 2019 a hard year? Cataloguing my defining experiences each month for the past year has helped me see that while 2019 brought about a few of my favourite memories, I also witnessed some of my darkest moments.

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Therapy Session #5: Body Image and Depression

I take frantic notes after every therapy session with the aim of remembering all of the revelations I came to in that 50 minute period. Most of the notes I take are disjointed blurbs that, when read together, illuminate some kind of unifying message or wider theme. Sometimes I have to think about how to…

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A Lesson From My 29th Birthday

My birthday has always made me really uncomfortable. There’s something about the attention that comes with the whole day that makes me wriggle. On top of that, birthdays get built up (whether in my mind or by society or both) to be some big deal so that after the day has come and gone you’re…

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Therapy, Session 3: Validation and Sweet Relief

Some mornings start with so much hope and then they end the way I really feel. Numb. I told my therapist today, ‘you could put me in a cardboard box and I wouldn’t have the energy to care.’ It sounds dramatic, but that is the honest to God truth. I can’t hear myself think. I…

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Never Enough: A Poem About Self-Esteem

When was the last time you did something for you without fear of judgement, scrutiny, without concern for appearances? Why do you seek approval from those who don’t know your soul? Your search for validation and acceptance is redundant, depleting; it eats aways at your heart bit by bit and yet you persist:

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Depression: A Poem

On the way home one evening, when I was in a particularly dark place, I had the clarity and understanding of my headspace to write the following words below. I cherish them still because nothing I have been able to write since has so concisely and aptly captured the extent to which I feel removed…

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On Depression – An Excerpt From My Journal

This morning I wrote in my journal: I am in a better place today. I’m not sure what made the difference, but my head is clearer and I don’t feel nearly as sad. I guess what I feel most at the moment is guilt. Guilt because as I share the things I do, I get…

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